Miss.

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Today, a very simple day, I woke up at 7pm in the evening.

Why so late?

I've gotten drunk last night.

I've never drink that much before.

I told myself that I wont drink alcohol  last time.

But now?

Actually I kinda fear alcohol, it makes me do things that I shouldn't.

I gives me illusion that weaken my friendship!

Somethings happen before this that makes me still can't get over it!

Because of this incident, I've learn that it's not easy to build a relation!

How did I do it last time?

Why can't I rebuild it?

I asked myself and I get no answer.

I miss moment where I share my stories in hand phone throughout the whole night.

I miss moment that you force me too sing for you.

I miss the moment that you don't allow me to this and that to make sure that I don't turn bad.

I miss the moment that when I wake up from a nap and sees you beside me.

I miss the moment waking you up from the bed and you're still sticking to the bed.

I miss the moment that you drive me out at midnight and go for a midnight movie.

I miss every single thing that had past.

All this can be considered memory!

I never hope that it will happen again because I know it takes a lot to makes us back together.

I've learn my lesson.

LET'S BREAKOUT, this two words started by me and I can't keep back them!

This two words had became our shadow, following us no matter what happen.

The reason we can't be together is because we can't overcome this shadow.

A scar is always a scar!

I hope, I wish yet I can't!
I love still!!!!!!

Really hope you take care yourself!

I know how weak you're although you always say you're tough!

I know you're not!

If I can fly there one day, I will surely fly there just to find you!

I know I will!

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Tarc Choral Exchange 2011!

Brother, Tze Hong visit KL!

Question mark for myself!

Four reason I find new relationship is very troublesome for me!

• It's not easy to have a girl to accept my character. I always mix around with girls cause I find it nice to chat with girls. I can't make my partner feel safe until she really trust on me!
• Due to my financial status,there's a lot of things that I can't give my partner, I couldn't bring her out for movies, shopping, travel or treat her eat what she wants. I feel useless when I can't do all this!
• Fourth, I have transportation problem, I don't own a car. What I can do is always move around with legs or take bus. Which girls wants to do that?
• Lastly, I'm a guy who don't know how to take care of myself, who wants to have such a useless guy to be in part of their life.

Haha, life is just so not cool. People may think or see that I live good, but I'm not! I'm just suffering every single fucking days! Who bothers? I miss those moment that my ex can understand my problem. and live on with me without complain. I missed out such a chance. I didn't want to grab back her for one reason, I'VE CHANGED, and I don't think I can give her any things that can make her feel good. I'm not up to the standard to have her. She belongs to a better one! Good luck in your SPM! You can do it! And all the best in your Japan trip!!^^ PEACE!

New Performing Style!

Recently I've done some research, and found some cool inspiration while searching it!

I'm so gonna bring saxophone's music to a whole new era! 

Stay tune!

Yu Kee gonna Blast off!!!!

Yu Kee such an ass!

I'm such a Jerk!
I can't do things that I promise!
Fuck!
Sien la, why can't I just stop stalking!

Whenever I go take a look, I'll see things that I hate.

Fuck man!

Change I look forward and start moving forward?

Why am I still squatting at the same place and looking backwards!

She don't worth my time anymore!

YuKee wake up yo!

Don't be such an ass!

Let her be happy her way and you find yours!

Don't be an idiot who can't let go the past!

Fuck you Yu Kee!

Wake up Ass!

TARC Mid-Autumn Festival!!!

Fuck my life!

Somehow my life still sucks although eveything seems fine!

I can sense that I'm lack of something.

What is that?

Please! Let me know!!!!

I promise to let go and move on.

Recently, I'm feeling really down and frustrated.

Again and again, I face financial problem again.

I'm working hard now by performing around.

Working life ain't fun, it's so hard to earn money.

I got to handle high pressure out there.

In college, I've got too handle performances and it's really tiring.

This Friday I got make the performance run well.

I'm kinda worry because my band is not well prepared.

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Change to relation part,

Last night, I broke a glass that was given by my ex girlfriend.

Even though we've been separated for so long I still miss her.

Some how.

But last night, the incident, taught me something.

I broke the glass accidentally, just like I suggest for the break up with her without consideration.

The glass breaks apart and couldn't be join back, even if it been join again it will still have a mark.

Just like my relation, after breaking off we kept on arguing non stop over the same problem.

So I think we're actually not suitable for each other even we trust and loveD each other so much before.

My emotion is still unstable now but as usual I still looks fine to others.

I want to be happy!

Please!

Update on my life.

Now, I'm back in KL.

Erm..there's a lot of changes.

I had a nice semester break chilling out with my friends and also meeting up my ex-girlfriend.

During holidays in Penang, I've got block my the club bouncer saying that I'm under age.

What a shame! Hahah...but it makes me feel young.

So, kinda good after all.

I've made it to the final round of Malaysia Most Talented 2011 but didn't manage to get any prizes.

But somehow this event makes me knew more people and gave me a idea on my playing.

I'll soon be a real SaxoManiac! I'm on my plan to do things that are so crazy that no other saxophonist will do in this world!

I'm forming a new me!

Wahahha..

This is some photos of me and my fellow classmate during the Cameron Highland trip!

Really is a nice trip!

Thanks a lot to C Yang!

Okay.

Back to relation part,

Me and my ex?

Erm.. Complicated stuff..

I can call it an end?

Cause every time we communicate we will argue.

And I felt that the love level is getting lesser.

It's more to missing the pass that keep on holding us.

It's only sympathy that's making me care about her.

Let time do the job, I'll be very busy and got no time for anymore relation.

I'll get a better one!

Studies, money, fame and performance!

You're all I need!