SaxoManiac

Saturday, May 5, 2012

ME and YOU'ed!

Last night, I dream of her.

This morning when I'm awake I thought of her.

When I'm in college, my friends remind me of her,

While I was playing, I'm thinking of you,

When I'm online, I saw you,

When I wanted to talk to you, my brain stop me from talking to you,

When I look right at the bottom right corner of my screen, I realize it was May the 5th,

The day where I started in relation with you!

This explain one thing, my mind and action will automatically reminds me of you!

Seriously, I didn't notice it was 5th of May. Now that I know! I felt that I fucking missing you!

My dear oh dear Ex! I wanna ask " HOW ARE YOU?"

The 1st photo of me and you!

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

This song is in my top list! Kinda meaningful to me^^
Sharing this out hoping that those that facing the same thing as me get to release all the pain by singing this.
After that STOP LISTENING!
hahahah

作曲：夏天Alex
编曲：颜小健

也许还能在网上看到你的消息
也许我唱的歌还存在你的手机
也许我爱你埋在心底变成秘密
也许你想我的时候我也在想你
多少次我告诉自己
此情可待已成追忆
多少次我告诫自己
不再为你流泪到一败涂地
我和你不再联系
希望你不要介意
要怪就怪当初没在一起
而你对现在也比较满意
所以我留下来也没有道理
我和你断了联系
不代表我不想你
走到哪里还是会有惦记
而我也开始试着去忘记
抹去我们过去的放弃的所有交集

April's Update!

Recently I really have so much hard time struggling to get through my daily life.

I've officially lost my relationship with the girl that I've loved for 4 years.

The worst thing was, it was on the 14th of February 2012, Valentine Night!

It took me around a month to pass through my tears.

I can say that now I'm feeling much better but somehow she's still in my brain.

I'm hoping that one day I can treat her like my old time good friend and not looking back at the pass.

This is my target.

On the other hand, my studies is not going well.

I don't know what on earth have happen to me, but I do know that I need some motivation!

I'll seek for it.

Finance! This is a major problem for me now!

Millionaire before age of 30?

Hahahha, I may laugh at here but this is still going on!

I won't stop this ultimate dream of mine!

I'll keep going on!

As for family! I'll try my best to help! As for me family is always no.1!

Hahahah... I'm planing to go for more part time job to seek for opportunities!!

I believe that if I can control and manage such messy life of mine, I'm sure that I can mange my future!

I'll make it messier soon! Hahaha

I have to start to say no to branded stuff now!! hehehe.. (It's hard)

Okay maybe not totally but CONTROL..haha..

I'll get myself a present every three months once...

OMG!! After looking at my April's timetable!!! Hahahah

Scratch my head! It's so pack! Except for 16th, 17th, 18th, 19th, 20th and 21st!!! Any part time job to intro!!!

I need it hahaha...

Let's see what's on my list!

Yea! First on Casting!! For the first time in my life I'm going for casting, hope someone choose me!!!haha

Next class trip to Melaka, suppose to be fun, but!!!!! Where the hell is the commitment for participant!

I'm really mad as most of them turn me down.

This is one year once! Why can't you all sacrifice>.<

I miss so many things because of this trip and turn out seeing so many not attending!

EMOMO!!! hahah... Never mind ><

YESH!!! the next one is PC FAIR 2012!! Anyone needs a laptop???

Find me!!! LENOVO is the best! Cause I'm using it!!hahahah

College orientation after that..hahaha

Time to see all the juniors!!! So darn excited!!haha

Wish that I can find new band members for my band!!!haha

By the way! Those that coming Tarc KL!!! Join Talentime Night!

It's time for you to shine in Tarc! hahaha

Lastly, I have a wedding performance at Kuantan. I'm required to dance!!! T.T

I'm a saxophonist and I'm required to dance!!! I don't want!

But for friends, okay la, just once..hahaha

April! Wao!!! Packed!!! Will keep myself busy!

And for my ex! Good luck in Japan!!! hahah... Remember to bring me for a tour in Japan when I get there..ahaha

Late post at night!

It's 12.19am and 5th of April 2012!

YuKee! Checking out!

Sunday, October 30, 2011

Miss.

Today, a very simple day, I woke up at 7pm in the evening.

Why so late?

I've gotten drunk last night.

I've never drink that much before.

I told myself that I wont drink alcohol last time.

But now?

Actually I kinda fear alcohol, it makes me do things that I shouldn't.

I gives me illusion that weaken my friendship!

Somethings happen before this that makes me still can't get over it!

Because of this incident, I've learn that it's not easy to build a relation!

How did I do it last time?

Why can't I rebuild it?

I asked myself and I get no answer.

I miss moment where I share my stories in hand phone throughout the whole night.

I miss moment that you force me too sing for you.

I miss the moment that you don't allow me to this and that to make sure that I don't turn bad.

I miss the moment that when I wake up from a nap and sees you beside me.

I miss the moment waking you up from the bed and you're still sticking to the bed.

I miss the moment that you drive me out at midnight and go for a midnight movie.

I miss every single thing that had past.

All this can be considered memory!

I never hope that it will happen again because I know it takes a lot to makes us back together.

I've learn my lesson.

LET'S BREAKOUT, this two words started by me and I can't keep back them!

This two words had became our shadow, following us no matter what happen.

The reason we can't be together is because we can't overcome this shadow.

A scar is always a scar!

I hope, I wish yet I can't!
I love still!!!!!!

Really hope you take care yourself!

I know how weak you're although you always say you're tough!

I know you're not!

If I can fly there one day, I will surely fly there just to find you!

I know I will!

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Tarc Choral Exchange 2011!

Brother, Tze Hong visit KL!

Friday, October 28, 2011

Question mark for myself!

Four reason I find new relationship is very troublesome for me!

It's not easy to have a girl to accept my character. I always mix around with girls cause I find it nice to chat with girls. I can't make my partner feel safe until she really trust on me!
Due to my financial status,there's a lot of things that I can't give my partner, I couldn't bring her out for movies, shopping, travel or treat her eat what she wants. I feel useless when I can't do all this!
Fourth, I have transportation problem, I don't own a car. What I can do is always move around with legs or take bus. Which girls wants to do that?
Lastly, I'm a guy who don't know how to take care of myself, who wants to have such a useless guy to be in part of their life.

Haha, life is just so not cool. People may think or see that I live good, but I'm not! I'm just suffering every single fucking days! Who bothers? I miss those moment that my ex can understand my problem. and live on with me without complain. I missed out such a chance. I didn't want to grab back her for one reason, I'VE CHANGED, and I don't think I can give her any things that can make her feel good. I'm not up to the standard to have her. She belongs to a better one! Good luck in your SPM! You can do it! And all the best in your Japan trip!!^^ PEACE!