I'm clicking restart button in my life!

It have been so long since I last udated my blog.

So many things happen in the past few months a weeks.

Everything started to change; my life changed.

I felt that even my charater had change to a worst one.

I scold vulgar words now and I‘m hot tempered.
Apart from that, I broke of with my beloved girlfriend.

And the reason is again it’s because of me.

The main reason is because of I made a break off  decision twice in a day without a clear mind.

The day I sent her the message  was the moment that my family face financial problem.

The day I sent her the message was the moment that my boss chase me out of the company.

This two problem lead me to make a big mistake which if break off with her.

I’ve never got a chance to explain all that and if I do explain, it’s still my fault.

After she leave me, I became very moody and tence to lose control in term of emotion.

I kept on log on to her Facebook Profile, kept on texting her and appologise and kept on stalk on her.

I felt that I’ve lose out my mind.

I felt she change, and she change to the type of girl that I don’t really like.

I can’t stop her from changing, that’s her right.

I don’t want her to change because if she does change I can’t accept.

If i can’t accept, I will give up her.

I don’t want that to happen.

I’m not in the right position to stop her.

And whatever thing I say is childish to her.

I saw a few of her post in Facebook, but I’m not sure whether I should comment or not.

This are the few:

You mean you don't want to be alone?

Yes, I do.

Is this post for me?

Yes, I still care about you>.<

My last word to her is,

“I love you still, you’re the best! Hope you change to a better person! “

Now, I'm clicking the RESTART button in my life.

I want to change to a better person!