我会站起来！

I've drop before in love.

I've fall under my career before.

I've lose my friendship before.

All this had created a massive impact in my life.

How does it feels like to loses the girl you love the most?

How does it feels like to see a opportunity and you're not able to take it?

*sign* all these shall be a past tense in my life.

Bibi Lim is a past tense.

A wonderful past tense.

I will be moving forward.

1st aim is my career.

I'll do whatever thing to achieve my career~

As for love, let it be~

It comes when it feels like coming.

I will continue moving. I can't find a full stop in my life~

There will be no full stop~

I stand for something.

又在想你了。

我又开始想你了！

我每天都在欺骗自己说起我已经把你忘了。

可是我每天都还在想你，

你给我的回忆，我忘不了。

你给我的一切，还在我的脑海里。

我放不下你！

都已经那么多个月了，我还是那么的没用！

一直都在希望你会回来我身边。

我知道这是没可能的。

你已经去了一个新的世界，

一个我完全不懂的世界。

你有了一个新生活，

我不了解的生活。

我，只想对你说，我会永远的陪你！

以朋友的身份陪你也好！

你给过我的我会好好的珍惜！

你活得开心，我就开心了！

七月八日2012。

I just want a Break!

Just finish one of my biggest project of the year, the Taiwan trip.

What's next?

> Saxophone cover.

> English Survey Report.

> Communication Law Assignment.

> Applied Photography- Panorama Shot.

> Father's day Production.

> Plural + Short film.

> Bboy Trailer

> Talentime Night Instrumentalists' Progress.

> NTV 7 Golden Award Workshop.

> Girl Style Dance Trailer.

> Life News Report.

> Midterm Exam!

I have 3 weeks to finish all this! Can I do it? 

I'm feeling so tired!

I'm just waiting for a break!!!

What is Love after Loved?

It has been more than 4 months.

I've never had a tendency to have love since my last failure.

What's the reason behind?

Why I didn't move on?

Am I still waiting for her?

This are those question that I question myself every single day.

What is Love after Loved?

Anyone knows the answer?

I've love someone so badly before and I realize that right now, I appreciate love more than before.

I know how hard is it to love and to be loved.

There's no right and wrong in love.

One wrong, both wrong.

I've seen and heard so many of my friends' relation problems.

And for all the problem they come with the same answer.

The answer is a question.

"Are you willing to GIVE and Take?"

I treasure LOVE. Do you?

ME and YOU'ed!

Last night, I dream of her.

This morning when I'm awake I thought of her.

When I'm in college, my friends remind me of her,

While I was playing, I'm thinking of you,

When I'm online, I saw you,

When I wanted to talk to you, my brain stop me from talking to you,

When I look right at the bottom right corner of my screen, I realize it was May the 5th,

The day where I started in relation with you!

This explain one thing, my mind and action will automatically reminds me of you!

Seriously, I didn't notice it was 5th of May. Now that I know! I felt that I fucking missing you!

My dear oh dear Ex! I wanna ask " HOW ARE YOU?"

The 1st photo of me and you!

不再联系

This song is in my top list! Kinda meaningful to me^^
Sharing this out hoping that those that facing the same thing as me get to release all the pain by singing this.
After that STOP LISTENING!
hahahah

作曲：夏天Alex
编曲：颜小健

也许还能在网上看到你的消息
也许我唱的歌还存在你的手机
也许我爱你埋在心底变成秘密
也许你想我的时候我也在想你
多少次我告诉自己
此情可待已成追忆
多少次我告诫自己
不再为你流泪到一败涂地
我和你不再联系
希望你不要介意
要怪就怪当初没在一起
而你对现在也比较满意
所以我留下来也没有道理
我和你断了联系
不代表我不想你
走到哪里还是会有惦记
而我也开始试着去忘记
抹去我们过去的放弃的所有交集

April's Update!

Recently I really have so much hard time struggling to get through my daily life.

I've officially lost my relationship with the girl that I've loved for 4 years.

The worst thing was, it was on the 14th of February 2012, Valentine Night!

It took me around a month to pass through my tears.

I can say that now I'm feeling much better but somehow she's still in my brain.

I'm hoping that one day I can treat her like my old time good friend and not looking back at the pass.

This is my target.

On the other hand, my studies is not going well. 

I don't know what on earth have happen to me, but I do know that I need some motivation!

I'll seek for it.

Finance! This is a major problem for me now!

Millionaire before age of 30?

Hahahha, I may laugh at here but this is still going on!

I won't stop this ultimate dream of mine!

I'll keep going on!

As for family! I'll try my best to help! As for me family is always no.1!

Hahahah... I'm planing to go for more part time job to seek for opportunities!!

I believe that if I can control and manage such messy life of mine, I'm sure that I can mange my future!

I'll make it messier soon! Hahaha

I have to start to say no to branded stuff now!! hehehe.. (It's hard)

Okay maybe not totally but CONTROL..haha..

I'll get myself a present every three months once...

OMG!! After looking at my April's timetable!!! Hahahah

Scratch my head! It's so pack! Except for 16th, 17th, 18th, 19th, 20th and 21st!!! Any part time job to intro!!!

I need it hahaha...

Let's see what's on my list!

Yea! First on Casting!! For the first time in my life I'm going for casting, hope someone choose me!!!haha

Next class trip to Melaka, suppose to be fun, but!!!!! Where the hell is the commitment for participant!

I'm really mad as most of them turn me down.

This is one year once! Why can't you all sacrifice>.<

I miss so many things because of this trip and turn out seeing so many not attending!

EMOMO!!! hahah... Never mind ><

 YESH!!! the next one is PC FAIR 2012!! Anyone needs a laptop???

Find me!!! LENOVO is the best! Cause I'm using it!!hahahah

College orientation after that..hahaha

Time to see all the juniors!!! So darn excited!!haha

Wish that I can find new band members for my band!!!haha

By the way! Those that coming Tarc KL!!! Join Talentime Night!

It's time for you to shine in Tarc! hahaha

Lastly, I have a wedding performance at Kuantan. I'm required to dance!!! T.T

I'm a saxophonist and I'm required to dance!!! I don't want!

But for friends, okay la, just once..hahaha

April! Wao!!! Packed!!! Will keep myself busy!

And for my ex! Good luck in Japan!!! hahah... Remember to bring me for a tour in Japan when I get there..ahaha

Late post at night!

It's 12.19am and 5th of April 2012!

YuKee! Checking out! 

Miss.

T

Today, a very simple day, I woke up at 7pm in the evening.

Why so late?

I've gotten drunk last night.

I've never drink that much before.

I told myself that I wont drink alcohol  last time.

But now?

Actually I kinda fear alcohol, it makes me do things that I shouldn't.

I gives me illusion that weaken my friendship!

Somethings happen before this that makes me still can't get over it!

Because of this incident, I've learn that it's not easy to build a relation!

How did I do it last time?

Why can't I rebuild it?

I asked myself and I get no answer.

I miss moment where I share my stories in hand phone throughout the whole night.

I miss moment that you force me too sing for you.

I miss the moment that you don't allow me to this and that to make sure that I don't turn bad.

I miss the moment that when I wake up from a nap and sees you beside me.

I miss the moment waking you up from the bed and you're still sticking to the bed.

I miss the moment that you drive me out at midnight and go for a midnight movie.

I miss every single thing that had past.

All this can be considered memory!

I never hope that it will happen again because I know it takes a lot to makes us back together.

I've learn my lesson.

LET'S BREAKOUT, this two words started by me and I can't keep back them!

This two words had became our shadow, following us no matter what happen.

The reason we can't be together is because we can't overcome this shadow.

A scar is always a scar!

I hope, I wish yet I can't!
I love still!!!!!!

Really hope you take care yourself!

I know how weak you're although you always say you're tough!

I know you're not!

If I can fly there one day, I will surely fly there just to find you!

I know I will!

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Tarc Choral Exchange 2011!

Brother, Tze Hong visit KL!

Question mark for myself!

Four reason I find new relationship is very troublesome for me!

• It's not easy to have a girl to accept my character. I always mix around with girls cause I find it nice to chat with girls. I can't make my partner feel safe until she really trust on me!
• Due to my financial status,there's a lot of things that I can't give my partner, I couldn't bring her out for movies, shopping, travel or treat her eat what she wants. I feel useless when I can't do all this!
• Fourth, I have transportation problem, I don't own a car. What I can do is always move around with legs or take bus. Which girls wants to do that?
• Lastly, I'm a guy who don't know how to take care of myself, who wants to have such a useless guy to be in part of their life.

Haha, life is just so not cool. People may think or see that I live good, but I'm not! I'm just suffering every single fucking days! Who bothers? I miss those moment that my ex can understand my problem. and live on with me without complain. I missed out such a chance. I didn't want to grab back her for one reason, I'VE CHANGED, and I don't think I can give her any things that can make her feel good. I'm not up to the standard to have her. She belongs to a better one! Good luck in your SPM! You can do it! And all the best in your Japan trip!!^^ PEACE!

New Performing Style!

Recently I've done some research, and found some cool inspiration while searching it!

I'm so gonna bring saxophone's music to a whole new era! 

Stay tune!

Yu Kee gonna Blast off!!!!

Yu Kee such an ass!

I'm such a Jerk!
I can't do things that I promise!
Fuck!
Sien la, why can't I just stop stalking!

Whenever I go take a look, I'll see things that I hate.

Fuck man!

Change I look forward and start moving forward?

Why am I still squatting at the same place and looking backwards!

She don't worth my time anymore!

YuKee wake up yo!

Don't be such an ass!

Let her be happy her way and you find yours!

Don't be an idiot who can't let go the past!

Fuck you Yu Kee!

Wake up Ass!

TARC Mid-Autumn Festival!!!

Fuck my life!

Somehow my life still sucks although eveything seems fine!

I can sense that I'm lack of something.

What is that?

Please! Let me know!!!!

I promise to let go and move on.

Recently, I'm feeling really down and frustrated.

Again and again, I face financial problem again.

I'm working hard now by performing around.

Working life ain't fun, it's so hard to earn money.

I got to handle high pressure out there.

In college, I've got too handle performances and it's really tiring.

This Friday I got make the performance run well.

I'm kinda worry because my band is not well prepared.

~~~~~~~

Change to relation part,

Last night, I broke a glass that was given by my ex girlfriend.

Even though we've been separated for so long I still miss her.

Some how.

But last night, the incident, taught me something.

I broke the glass accidentally, just like I suggest for the break up with her without consideration.

The glass breaks apart and couldn't be join back, even if it been join again it will still have a mark.

Just like my relation, after breaking off we kept on arguing non stop over the same problem.

So I think we're actually not suitable for each other even we trust and loveD each other so much before.

My emotion is still unstable now but as usual I still looks fine to others.

I want to be happy!

Please!

Update on my life.

Now, I'm back in KL.

Erm..there's a lot of changes.

I had a nice semester break chilling out with my friends and also meeting up my ex-girlfriend.

During holidays in Penang, I've got block my the club bouncer saying that I'm under age.

What a shame! Hahah...but it makes me feel young.

So, kinda good after all.

I've made it to the final round of Malaysia Most Talented 2011 but didn't manage to get any prizes.

But somehow this event makes me knew more people and gave me a idea on my playing.

I'll soon be a real SaxoManiac! I'm on my plan to do things that are so crazy that no other saxophonist will do in this world!

I'm forming a new me!

Wahahha..

This is some photos of me and my fellow classmate during the Cameron Highland trip!

Really is a nice trip!

Thanks a lot to C Yang!

Okay.

Back to relation part,

Me and my ex?

Erm.. Complicated stuff..

I can call it an end?

Cause every time we communicate we will argue.

And I felt that the love level is getting lesser.

It's more to missing the pass that keep on holding us.

It's only sympathy that's making me care about her.

Let time do the job, I'll be very busy and got no time for anymore relation.

I'll get a better one!

Studies, money, fame and performance!

You're all I need!